Wednesday, April 6, 2011

eating my own words, nom-nom-nom

Life is all about choices, eh? Life is full of change?

Well, I'm sick of them.  Done. Packing up. No more. Give me a good coma and let me be.

I feel pulled in a million directions. I feel like an awkward teenager. I feel misunderstood and misguided. I feel selfish. I feel dumb and too smart for my own good. I feel capable of doing everything and incapable of doing anything. I'm strong and weak, busy and idle, restrained and liberated. I feel overwhelmed by it all, tangled up in too much, surrounded by life-clutter that no amount of type-A anal-retentivity can begin to sweep up.

I am clearly not living up to the person I want to be, so I either have to shape up or lower my personal standards. Spring fever is burning me, I guess :)

What's got you tangled up these days?

Much Love,
Able-Bodied Girl


  

2 comments:

  1. Being contradictory to yourself is ok sometimes. It helps to re-evaluate what you're doing, where you're going and what you're thinking. Change is good... but change is a painful process and it's ok to feel annoyed and frustrated and angry about it. Just don't let it get you down for too long.

    I often have blogged about these sorts of feelings... being tired of it all, wanting to crawl in a hole and hide, wanting something to remain UNchanged for once. So, yeah... I get you here.

    Posting something over at my blog for you today. It's an old copy, stolen from someone else... but often gets me through times when my life seems topsy-turvy and I am frustrated with where I am... or where I'm not.

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  2. In your list of clickable "What do you think?" you need to add "ditto".

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